I didn't really love you, I just wanted you to be the one I love.

Love is romance.

I want to Love, and being loved.

Love
Something I wanted to learn.
Something I couldn't know much.
Something I never get to know thou it is simple.

Starting a kid
I learn from Dramas, Stories, Quotes, Articles, and even real life experiences. 
I learnt to be a restless warrior  
I learnt to be the one prepared at all times. 
I am but I'm not so. 
I am prepared but I'm not needed. 

I learnt from Dramas that girls love romance
But reality is not what I can manipulate. 
Or maybe preparations were just insufficient? 

I learnt from experience
Girls need care 
But who am I to care? 
Who needs my care? 

I learnt to be the perfect boyfriend in girls mouth.
I learnt to give up anything for her.
I learnt to avoid games in my life, every second of mine is for her.
I learnt to put her above everything.
I learnt to protect her from flirty guys.
I learnt to punch to lay judgement on those who hurt her.
I learnt to immune punches just to shield her.
I learnt to be the one giving her supports.
I learnt to be the one staying up to hear her silence sleeps.
I learnt to keep my distance with other girls if I had her.

If only I had her. I learnt many things to love the girl I wanted to.
Maybe I was wrong all the time. 

I didn't really love you, I just wanted you to be the one I love. 

An Old New.

I have blogs but I never had one. 

My life is so not interesting to blog about 

or maybe I'm just not so good in describing the best out of the normal. 

Read my previous blogs when I was trying to clear my blogs. 

That was a good recall of how I came across this year. 

Just this year of the Wabbit (Which I used to call it in my blog) I had the biggest ups and downs. 

Like not much know, I'm not someone who really do shares my things when I speak everything. 

No secrets in me but they are still bits and parts which no one could get access to them. 

I do not hide, I cover. 

I want a matter. Yes I do. Who doesn't? 

I want to be a matter to you. Maybe this is the real reason behind all the emoness I had all along. 

I don't really know myself. 

I want to love, not scared nor shy to announce. 

I want to love, and being loved in return. 

I tried to learn how to love. 

I seen couples complaining and some even broke up. 

I learnt what I see and hear. 

I tried my best to learn to be the perfect boyfriend in every girls' mouth. 

I really put much effort of thinking in that. Just thinking and planning since I do not have the chance to do. 

Leaving the result of my lesson for my next post. I'll definately be updating this. 

I want the future me to see how childish I once were.