点解?

整晚在那儿自言自语
像是彩排怎样跟她说话
(原来我这么失败=-=还要彩排的哦)
说了一大堆都没有send出去……
以前啊总说什么以后说话前都要draft先
最后还不是draft都没draft就直接type直接send咯
(之前自言自语的事都不记得了)

好想问
那时混熟了 
在一起的时候她究竟是不是真正有feel到happy勒?
话是这么说啦
不过我真的是看不出当时那个笑容哪里不正常喔
连我过分的时候她都没怎样抗拒啊 
*Bluuur*

都不知道自己emo些什么
就整个mood不爽不爽的
有一直跟自己说一切正常啊
但是
我真是过不了自己那关咯
自己是不是真的那么烂哦
点解我始终弄不到你笑得?
不是不是……是好难才弄到你笑
而人家好易就弄你哈哈大笑
点算好啊?

女人总说男人不守承诺
但是女人就一定记得么?
承诺只有在乎的那一方记得吧?
老实说啦
你讲过的话你记得几多呢?

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Public Speaking Competition? The Pro and The Professionals.

Blogging at such a time.

I couldn't sleep normally these days. 

Easily feeling tired and fired up after a few hours nap.

My ex Lecturer sent and email to me, asking me to join a Public Speaking Competition.

He says we, the chosen ones, are rather good in speaking.

I told my mum, she joked, or maybe seriously asked me to accept the offer. 

She thinks I am really that good in expressing myself. 

I thought for awhile during the ride home.

I lost all my confidence in speaking... 

I remember during secondary times I was one of the best students that can communicate with almost EVERYONE I meet. 

But then today, me having the problem communicating with the girls I like.

A serious lack of communication skills in communicating hearts. 

Thinking back how I tried to communicate with all 3 girls I once liked. 

I said a thousand words, I kept silence to create a better atmosphere... 

ALL turned out to be a joke. A joke that made no one laugh. 

I kills conversation easily

I do not know how to make her talk to me

I do not possess the ability to think of funny topics. 

I do not have lines that touches the heart. 

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Comparing is the weirdest thing existing...

People says by comparing you can improve... 

Porkshits. 

I do not see any leap in me, or instead, motionless. 

I only see how bad I am when I am comparing. 

A good speaker...? 

Those that could really communicate with the girls... 

A 1 2 3 word and all burst out laughing like mad... 

Now then this is what I call Professional speakers...

I am envious or rather jealous of this... 

Being a pro isn't that pro after all. 

Just a blind update. :) Nights.